WITHIN THAT FOUR WHITE WALLS

the white color of that four walls
is deceitful
two evils vs the innocent one
we all know how it ends
we all know who has to go

there she lies, all drained out
all sucked dry
the narcissist that refuses motherhood
chanting away
"it has to come out"
"remove it... now!"
like a rotten tooth out of her gum
any guilts she feels?i don't know
definitely not the same feeling
like that night of the mind-blowing sex

oh how she couldn't wait
to get it over and done with

there he stands
all instruments in hands
covered with white gloves
he must have thought that the blood
won't stay on those hands
he was wrong
he thought he was smart
behind that white mask he hides
funny he could be what he is now
and has so little respect for life

there she is, inside the womb
thinking she will always be safe
she thought momma can't wait
she was eager yet not all set
she wondered what it would be like
as she pictured the world outside
she thought father would be proud
and he must've prepared
a pretty pink bed
she never thought what awaits her
is that jar

whether she feels guilty, i think so
if only she knew momma wasn't ready
if only she knew momma made a mistake
she wouldn't be there
so momma won't be in pain
she wouldn't have hoped too much
to be in the same place her momma lived
to share the same air her momma breathed

there she is, all set to go *relief sigh*
there he is, a session done *relief sigh*

and there that little girl is
inside that jar

she looks around and she sees
a lot of jars

*relief sigh*

she's not alone....

SUNSET BLUES

when the sun sets down
and the sky turns velvet blue
that's when my mind
filled with the thought of you..........

THANK YOU, BASTARD

you said you lied
so that i won't get hurt
why am i here then?
shuddering in pain...?

this hideous realm in my heart
where the sordid sagas of my past
are written on every walls
the clutter of the broken pieces
that refused to come intact
are all over the floor
i bolted them all within this sphere
made of iron bricks, locked with odium

this is where you put me now

thank you.