We Were Never Friends

We were never friends
you and I

I dont remember you sitting with me when you saw me eating alone
I dont recall you saving me a seat, Perhaps you saw me fine on my own
Not that I mind the fact I'm a friend when you needed a helping hand
Not that I mind although I knew I am never a friend to you

We were never friends
you and I

So why the sudden interest you show?
My series of good times you never cared but I see my foul steps made you glow
I sense no concern, I sense no sympathy. Only your eager question of "what's the story?"
There I saw what you make of me
Just another topic to discuss over tea

We were never frienda
you and I

So cut the act as if you cared
You may be glad to find me flawed
You have the right to laugh and talk
As for me, I'll keep it real
We are never friends - sounds like a deal.

Kontradiksi

Kata Billy Joel
"Jujur itu hidup dalam kesunyian
kerana suara jujur itu terlalu jarang orang mahu dengarkan"

Betapa kita manusia hidup dalam kontradiksi
Yakin berani dirodok tajamnya benar dari
dicincang kerikil dusta
Dan bila tersentak nyata yang benar itu
realitinya tersangat ngilu
jisimnya terlalu padu
tak terpikul dek longlainya hati rabaknya bahu
Masih sanggupkah buka mata
dan tadah setiap nyeri dan sakitnya?

Jangan tipu

Terlalu ramai yang mahu jadi srikandi
Kata mahu berdiri walau diterjah taufan api
Gah memasak langkah konon mahu lawan hati

Dan bila datang si tukang karut suara merdu
Mendendang lagu dusta mendayu
Meniup dingin hati yang diacah bahang api
Kau tumpas bagai air batu mencair membasah bumi

Tiba-tiba suara jujur jadi bisikan jahat
Suara benar yang menderu kau anggap panggilan kiamat
Tertutup sudah mata
Tertuli sudah telinga
Dan kau tersenyum memeluk bahagia palsumu
Kerana pada kau itulah "kebenaranmu".

Kebenaran padamu bukan lagi apa yang benar
Tapi apa yang kau pilih untuk lihat, percaya dan DENGAR

Face it.


See? Kontradiksi.

Big Joke.....'s On You

Amazing how you can hate me
write shit about me
and be inspired by my writing
all at the same time.

You're welcome :D

I Err

I err to empower myself with better sense of judgment
I err to taste the growing pains of wisdom
I err because I don't learn by the book
I err so that I don't live in fear that someday I will err
I err to understand deeply what is regret
I err to comprehend imperfections
I err too many times and I call them Experience
I err and err again because that's what human do
and I believe that applies to you, too.

Quoting

Sifu sastera dari beratus tahun sudah
pernah bermadah
"tak ada yang tidak adil dalam dunia cinta dan medan perang"

Kerana takkan wujud keadilan di situ
menjadikan segala ketidakadilan yang terjadi
adalah adil.

Makna adil yang hakiki
ternyata bukan untuk akal kerdil menilai.





"All is fair in love and war..."
Euphues, John Lyly (1578)