Will You?

i tried my best to be the best not knowing either that's what you want, or something else beyond.
i strove to construe what seems like a fiddly map, wishing and hoping to get through your clues.
i never hoped for a smooth sail in December, but wished to see you fighting the tide with me.
i want to explore the locked covert sphere inside of you, but I wonder..

Will you ever let me in..?